Years go by

I realized that i detest celebrating the lunar new year even more now as the years go by. seems like the tradition will be broken. somehow i feel that if there is no soul in the tradition, its a pain to go through it. i mean like where was all the fun and enjoyment that used to exist in the past. what was once a true celebration now seems like a yearly routine. i am really on the verge of going crazy over all these visiting and smiling pretense when all i yearn for is to be alone for these few days. when the next lunar new year arrives, i shall disappear for days, why should i do something i do not enjoy.

sometimes when i listen to those music pieces from spirited away, mononoke hime, and even classics like kiki's delivery service, i feel that time has stopped for just that few minutes. the feeling is simply wonderful and it always brings a smile to me. every time i hear those pieces, the feelings during those few minutes are always the same. i really wanna experience living in the country side where the fields stretch as far as the eye can see and majestic forest rustles in the breeze that serves as the backdrop. when the pace of life is slow and the days are simple without haste, where the people are happy just to be alive with nature.

the happy and light hearted feeling when you embark on a journey that will change your life and as the way ahead gets difficult there are friends who are with you to forge on ahead. the melody of that difficult yet daunting task that must be done, a journey within a journey that brings you to places you never ever though of going. that feeling of being in unfamiliar places and then there's no knowing what will happen next, the thoughts of worries fills the heart, but when night approaches, the heart calms the night breeze fills the land with a blanket of peace.

With this all good things come to an end and as we look back to the path we once walk, the paths that leads to all the adventures and memories that lives in our hearts even though we're now living in a different environment. although the feelings of sadness brings tears to your eyes, but these tears are not tears of sadness but of joy as you have at least experiences an adventure that seems like a dream.



my aunt's schnauzer, age has definitely got on to her. she's fourteen but as lovable as ever.